I love how simple this year Hari Raya celebration have been so far, despite me being very busy with assignments and mid-terms. Still lotsa visitings to be done, with the family and the different cliques, hope I’ll enjoy it. Selamat Hari Raya.
Still having SGP hangover. After attending F1, you’ll thought that the sound of Subaru Impreza driving past your house at 2am belongs to Hamilton’s McLaren. And everything smells like burnt tires now.
The past weekend been great I tell you, from Friday’s practice session till Sunday’s race. The sight, sound, smell, atmosphere, crowd, the whole event organisation, it’s been great that for once I thought I’m on a 3-days holiday somewhere, not in Marina Bay Singapore. The whole experience indescribable. We managed to get some really good views but in the end settled down at Turn 16 on race day. Sha and I are so looking forward to next year’s SGP. Confirm plus chop, we’re going again.
Anw, today’s race was drama-filled. We were neutrally rooting for Alonso ytd for he did well during practices but his car disappointingly failed him during qualifying. So, we prophesized that in order for him to win, all the dramas seen today must happen and holy shit it happened! When the first 3 were doing the first few laps in their pole positions, I was praying for the rain to come and some crashes so that the SCs will come out. Haha. What unfolded was totally fun. And Massa still cracks me up. Should have seen the gasps from the majority Ferrari supporters there and me cheering. Breathtaking ending to a great weekend! Still watching videos of that Ferrari’s mechanics running with that hose thingy. LOL!!!!
That meeting was a pure, unexpected coincidence. Was glad to bump into you, AS after all this years. The four of us really had a nice conversation. It felt like yesterday, once again. I’m really glad for you AS, for the company you were with. It was a pleasant surprise and I still remember we talking about it. You told me I’m no more the lovable young boy you used to know. You told me I felt different. I really wish I’m still the lovable young boy you used to know. Sighz. Well, you don’t change much. We talked about the same things again, like a broken record. And we laughed at it again and again. You told me things are much different now. I’ll say the same too. Yes, we all miss each other. 
I won’t talk about how good things were. I won’t talk about how anxious we all are about current changes and developments in our life. I won’t talk about how we prefer to be with the familiars. We all at certain stage in our life wish that we can go back 5, 10 or 15 years of our life. No point emo-ing about it seriously.
I am really glad for where I am, what am I, and who I’m with now. I can’t ask for much, neither do I want to be more than what I’m supposed to be. Maybe I’ve made mistakes along the way. They are just reminders etched in history. I don’t see the need to try harder anymore. Just try hard is enough. I don’t wish to meet 100 new people(do they even care?), attend all parties (I have my own life), act interested (actors are paid), pleases other (when I’m not pleased myself), live in denial (save this for actors), make happy faces (SK said, don’t try to be happy when you’re not, it shows). I’m just comfortable this way, faceless and unknown and not bothered. MK, I know it’s been troubling you too. You wish you were unaffected by them. You can if you want to. Problem is, you don’t know where you want to be, in or out. Decide.
Well, I’m really tired. Been meeting people and will be meeting different groups of people for the next few days. Really love these people though I wish I have more time for myself. Love the simple surprise we did for NH yesterday. Banishment with RO and the discussion that follows always reminds me of filmart classes. Mid-terms coming and I’m not prepared. Hari Raya coming and I wish I can be more excited. F1 next weekend and I should be excited.
You know how just that one question causes you to lose your self-esteem and confidence you’ve built over the years? 
Anw, I’m hardly breathing. Do leave me alone if I don’t invite you for a chat, but it’ll be nice if you drop by to say hi and ask me how am I doing.
O-week was a blast.
I’ve been left behind many times that I don’t want to be abandoned again.